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Saturday, December 31, 2011

How Will You Start 2012?

English: New Years Eve at Hallgrímskirkja Reyk...Image via Wikipedia
With everyone in the midst of the festive season, it's easy to get 'too' involved in the goings-on. Many people get so tied up with the countless deadlines that rather rapidly impinge upon the whole idea of this time of year; namely enjoyment. I'm part of this sort of scenario but not by choice.

The hustle and bustle form both sides of the family has left me sitting here on the afternoon of New Years Eve with part of the family going out to a full-throttle booze up while the other side of the family (myself included) shall be celebrating quietly at home. The fact that I'm a recovering alcoholic led me to the decision of staying at home. Getting drunk doesn't appeal to me. Neither does having just the one drink. If things go according to my own plan, I'll be woken at midnight to 'see in the New Year' and return to bed shortly thereafter.

As boring as this sounds, the lead-up to it is already causing some angst. My cousin is playing in a band at the full-throttle drinking event. I'm taking him out there and will be picking him up tomorrow at goodness knows what time. This may not sound stressful as such but he's still making phone calls, organising this, that and the other. Just to put the icing on the cake, his kids will be staying here but are already asking if their Dad can stay at home. Even I can't pin him down to a departure time.

So....for the afternoon I envisage two ratty kids. Tomorrow will be the same until my brother arrives home sleep-deprived at best. All of this comes at the end of a great Xmas and busy but enjoyable five days with my children.

As you can imagine, my lack of sleep has to be caught up on. I was hoping that it would be some time tonight or even tomorrow. Evidently I was wrong. Despite any urge to consume alcohol, a series of unexpected changes to the routine of a manic depression have a more severe impact than those who don't suffer from the condition. In my case the symptoms are constant lethargy and higher than normal anxiety levels.

Having said all of this, it will all pass very soon and I have promised myself to get back into the recording studio early in 2012 as it has been very 'patchy' in 2011.

I'd like to wish you all the best for the New Year and thank you for your ongoing support.


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